Today has been challenging, but yet I know it could always be worse:) I am quite irritated at my sciatic nerve, constant nausea ( but it is better than puking all day), extreme exhaustion ( I thought I was supposed to have a spike in energy sometime weeks ago), intense heartburn, and my hormones. I probably need to go and have my dr. test my lovely thyroid sooner than later again.
I am NOT however irritated at the little one growing inside of me, just wishful that someday I might be able to be the type of person who would say "I love being pregnant." That has never been my case and today I am so far from saying that that I should live on another planet.
Our clever little dude has been throwing more fits left and right, which has meant less naps for both of us and a lot more hauling, kicking, screaming him upstairs, around town etc., a pleasantry for my aching body. Oh, yeah and with Bryan being gone all the time, that means I have had the pleasant role of doing it all.
I cannot wait until Bryan is actually done with school and I can have a companion at home most nights again. Today I considered making a colored paper chain to count down the few months that he has left...today is one where close to desperation has been felt.
However, It is days like today where I wonder how in the world do people make it through without the gospel of Jesus Christ in their lives. It is through Christ that I really do receive strength and ability beyond my own, and that on days like today, I don't end up as a huge sobbing, depressed pregnant woman. I can't count the times today, that I have been able to just make it one more step, through one more tantrum, one more heave and ho, and although usually falling on the couch to breathe afterwards, I have always felt peace and comfort. On days like today, where it has felt like a "no-good very bad day", I have felt made able.
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