Cravings...
... With our first little dude, I craved anything bread. With this one, it seems like I am craving anything. I can have pizza 2 nights in a row and still want it the next week. I have had to eat something mexican weekly, particularly fajitas. My kind husband puts up with it. I crave things that are bread, but it is more carbohydrates than anything else. Some of the really bready stuff hasn't been able to stay in my system long enough to be enjoyed. I am ready for the cravings to at least subside...here's hoping.
I don't know what to title this one...
Today has been challenging, but yet I know it could always be worse:) I am quite irritated at my sciatic nerve, constant nausea ( but it is better than puking all day), extreme exhaustion ( I thought I was supposed to have a spike in energy sometime weeks ago), intense heartburn, and my hormones. I probably need to go and have my dr. test my lovely thyroid sooner than later again.
I am NOT however irritated at the little one growing inside of me, just wishful that someday I might be able to be the type of person who would say "I love being pregnant." That has never been my case and today I am so far from saying that that I should live on another planet.
Our clever little dude has been throwing more fits left and right, which has meant less naps for both of us and a lot more hauling, kicking, screaming him upstairs, around town etc., a pleasantry for my aching body. Oh, yeah and with Bryan being gone all the time, that means I have had the pleasant role of doing it all.
I cannot wait until Bryan is actually done with school and I can have a companion at home most nights again. Today I considered making a colored paper chain to count down the few months that he has left...today is one where close to desperation has been felt.
However, It is days like today where I wonder how in the world do people make it through without the gospel of Jesus Christ in their lives. It is through Christ that I really do receive strength and ability beyond my own, and that on days like today, I don't end up as a huge sobbing, depressed pregnant woman. I can't count the times today, that I have been able to just make it one more step, through one more tantrum, one more heave and ho, and although usually falling on the couch to breathe afterwards, I have always felt peace and comfort. On days like today, where it has felt like a "no-good very bad day", I have felt made able.
I am NOT however irritated at the little one growing inside of me, just wishful that someday I might be able to be the type of person who would say "I love being pregnant." That has never been my case and today I am so far from saying that that I should live on another planet.
Our clever little dude has been throwing more fits left and right, which has meant less naps for both of us and a lot more hauling, kicking, screaming him upstairs, around town etc., a pleasantry for my aching body. Oh, yeah and with Bryan being gone all the time, that means I have had the pleasant role of doing it all.
I cannot wait until Bryan is actually done with school and I can have a companion at home most nights again. Today I considered making a colored paper chain to count down the few months that he has left...today is one where close to desperation has been felt.
However, It is days like today where I wonder how in the world do people make it through without the gospel of Jesus Christ in their lives. It is through Christ that I really do receive strength and ability beyond my own, and that on days like today, I don't end up as a huge sobbing, depressed pregnant woman. I can't count the times today, that I have been able to just make it one more step, through one more tantrum, one more heave and ho, and although usually falling on the couch to breathe afterwards, I have always felt peace and comfort. On days like today, where it has felt like a "no-good very bad day", I have felt made able.
I realized the other day....
that I forgot to let all my blogging friends out there know.....We are having a BOY!!! Yep another little dude is coming into our family! We are so very excited! The practical part of me is so happy we can reuse so much of what we already have. I think Bryan was nervous that I really wanted a girl, ( albeit it is no lie that the Target girl section is to die for with cuteness) I would really rather have a girl when he is actually getting paid for his education ( that fact would at least help me justify all the pink goodness:)). We have started thinking of names, and all that has really come from it has been a long list:) We will get there though:)
It's a wonderful life...
Well, this morning I woke up sick again. No surprise really, I have been sick for the past 22 weeks. Yep, all day sick. Thank goodness for Zofran, modern medicine is literally a dear friend of mine. I just have to make sure my body will let it stay in me long enough to work. The medicine makes me feel human. My bed actually gets made from time to time:) This pregnancy is really similar to with our 1st little dude, I would, however, be really grateful for the sickness part to end before 9 months. But considering it didn't with our little dude, I am not counting my chickens before they hatch.:)
I will, however, give myself a gold star for the day because i actually exercised a feat almost impossible on other days.
But regardless of being sick, I am soooo very grateful to be a mother and to be having this second little one come join our family. I am so very grateful my Heavenly Father is giving me this opportunity, because I know not everyone gets the opportunity to even have one little one. And I am so very grateful for a son and husband who are so willing to help me "feel better."
As for life with my little family, it is beginning to get a little crazier:) Bryan will be officially done with grad school at the beginning of August ( Please insert the Hallelujah Chorus here!) I can't wait to have a husband who is just working! No homework, tests, papers, late nights and early mornings of studying! More family dinners! He truly is Superman!
With that change has begun an onslaught of looking for a better job in all ways possible:) We are eager to start a new chapter, that doesn't include school. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father blesses us with the ability to do all the crazy, hectic things that have been and continue to be placed into our lives. When I look back on my day, I just sit in wonder that everything was made possible.
I am hoping that we will know where we will be going in the next few months before the baby comes. That would be very helpful for my sometimes OCD personality.
Besides the sickness factor for me, life has been wonderful. I don't have anything to complain about. I am married to a wonderful man and i have the kindest and most ingenious little son a mom could ask for. I have had to take things a lot slower, but I am okay with that. After serving as RS president for a year, when slow comes I have learned to relish it. The important things are all that really matter. I am beginning to feel old, as I see my youngest sister about to start her senior year this fall, but also excited as I see my 19 year old sister only have a few more months of chemo left and then she will be done!
We have been through a whirlwind these past couple of years, but I am so grateful for the lessons learned and experiences wrought ( the good and the bad.)
I will, however, give myself a gold star for the day because i actually exercised a feat almost impossible on other days.
But regardless of being sick, I am soooo very grateful to be a mother and to be having this second little one come join our family. I am so very grateful my Heavenly Father is giving me this opportunity, because I know not everyone gets the opportunity to even have one little one. And I am so very grateful for a son and husband who are so willing to help me "feel better."
As for life with my little family, it is beginning to get a little crazier:) Bryan will be officially done with grad school at the beginning of August ( Please insert the Hallelujah Chorus here!) I can't wait to have a husband who is just working! No homework, tests, papers, late nights and early mornings of studying! More family dinners! He truly is Superman!
With that change has begun an onslaught of looking for a better job in all ways possible:) We are eager to start a new chapter, that doesn't include school. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father blesses us with the ability to do all the crazy, hectic things that have been and continue to be placed into our lives. When I look back on my day, I just sit in wonder that everything was made possible.
I am hoping that we will know where we will be going in the next few months before the baby comes. That would be very helpful for my sometimes OCD personality.
Besides the sickness factor for me, life has been wonderful. I don't have anything to complain about. I am married to a wonderful man and i have the kindest and most ingenious little son a mom could ask for. I have had to take things a lot slower, but I am okay with that. After serving as RS president for a year, when slow comes I have learned to relish it. The important things are all that really matter. I am beginning to feel old, as I see my youngest sister about to start her senior year this fall, but also excited as I see my 19 year old sister only have a few more months of chemo left and then she will be done!
We have been through a whirlwind these past couple of years, but I am so grateful for the lessons learned and experiences wrought ( the good and the bad.)
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